Man I stack layers of irony in my lil' skits like pancakes, so I understand if your Pentium™ brain can't possibly comprehend it. What I meant to say by that lil' message over here is that I found that positive-nihilistic, egoisticly-altruistic, scientificly-explained zen and nothing can make me experience real emotions without internalizin and rethinking this shit, forming this meta mind that's living inside me as a parasite, poisoning my thoughts.